Addiction a word that is misleading as it is clear. I sit here examining myself and I realized that I too have an addiction. There are things I struggle with that goes unseen, things that only my private habits can attest and testify that I am an addict. We often see people who drank themselves under the table and now Kate Moss with her publicly revealed drug habit it’s those outward practices that confirms that someone needs help. I find that the real dangerous behaviors are the ones that goes uncheck and unnoticed. I realize that most of us have something that is secret, something that is private and dirty that no ones knows; which is our own clandestine addiction. These hidden practices can be to something so innocent whether it be taking a little drink each night to help you fall to sleep, or some weed just a few puff each night, or watching porn, to masturbation excessively, to surfing the internet looking for god knows what; all these things are addictions hidden that no knows or suspect.
An addiction causes one to loose power of self, freewill might be free but an addiction makes freewill its salve. We tend to think these habits are innocent but if we closely examine then we will see that our happiness revolves around them. So then I realized my secret addiction is no better than the crack addict, the pothead or the alcoholic. The thing that makes mine different from theirs is mine is not seen. Walking the busy New York City streets so many people I can not help to wonder what ball and chain do most of them drag around with them. How helpless they feel knowing that something is a part of them which they would rather not have. I realize that I have the power to do whatever I want and if I really want to be free I have to take control of every part of my life those seen and unseen. Addictions also serve to some good. They let you know you are human and vulnerable. There are only two steps to conquering your addition
1. Identify it!
2. Do something about it!
It’s that simple nothing more nothing less. So today I acknowledge my addiction and I purpose myself to do something about it. I can not stand in judgment about others addictions because I am not prefect. They have their own cross to bear as do I.
It is better to bear one cross in the open where you can get help and to bear it in private. When you are all alone and there is no one there to help. So who is really better of then? I believe we are champions and can beat anything we just have to have the will to do so.
3 comments:
You're so right that it's as simple as making the choice to make the change. A lot of people allow their addictions to control them instead of getting control of the addiction. It's easier that way, and people seem to resist things that are difficult. Great post.
Insightful as usual. Addictions can be the tiniest of things at first until it spirals out of control. As any twelve step program will tell you, the first step is admitting to having the problem. That's the easy part actually. Doing something about it is where the challenge falls in.
Bravo,
Well spoken. Spoken from experiance I hope.
I have thought of all those things that I do on the side and in the dark that no one knows about that makes me who I am. But, with out them I would be so much greater.
I have to identify it, then take action. Sure will sir.
As always in Parting,
I came in Peace and in Peace I leave.
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