Grateful

Sitting here I reflect on my life over the pass few weeks. Emotionally I’ve been in a rowboat without a paddle being tossed about by winds of life. Its been hard but I’ve found strength in the little things and I have rediscovered faith in friends who sent out lifelines to rescue me.
I sit here grateful today I was tossed around by the waves but yet I did not fall in and drown.
I was wet with sweat but yet as that sweat dried I was cooled as it evaporated off my skin.
I found myself up late at nights with my thoughts racing a mile a minute praying for sleep so I could at least escape into a dream where I could not feel anything that was in the land of the wake. Where I could be anything or anyone in dreaming I found a refuge but daylight always seem to come too soon. The sounds of the morning wake me shakes me back to an existence that was not as jovial as my dream.
I’ve been taught a few lessons in this storm; the friends who always call you for comfort in your time of comfortless they are not to be found; to deep in their own selfish worlds to care about how you are feeling.

Then there are family who might as well not be and friends who should be family.
I am so grateful for some of the friends I have in my life. They are truly a gift from God and I pray I cherish them, love them, and respect them for as long as I live because they show me what true love really is. So I take this moment to give my boys Jordon, Craig and Stewart a special thank you. What you show is how to live and what loving a friend is really about. In my desert of depression I found an Oasis in your love for me and my well being. Then there are the new souls in my life people like No4Real who themselves were in need yet still they wanted to make sure I was okay that specks volumes to a persons character. He has a place in my heart too.

So I sit here my boat at shore, the clouds still seem a bit dark but with the help of God and the angles he puts in your life I will find my paddles. And if I should be lost at sea a again I will look to lighthouse that are you guys and I know you will help me find my way home.