Have you even sat down to think what will you do in your more settled years? I do not think most of us has. I mean when you are older and that sexy body is just a body. When that beautiful black hair is gray and thinning. I do not think we ever think about that.
Today I had lunch with my Nana. She is 76 years old a vibrant woman with a really beautiful heart warming smile. She lives alone on the other side of the Bronx. Her kids are all grown with children of their own. Now all she has really to care about is her dog Max. Lunch was so nice today she took me to a Thai restaurant to celebrate my graduation. At lunch we discussed life and the journey there of. I realized that Nana is lonely sometimes. All her life she took care of people she was nurse now in these days when she needs a little love and taken care of there is no one here. I am young and I feel that way sometimes lonely, afraid that I might be found alone one day. To be honest it really scares me to be old and alone. The world goes on around you and some how you feel disconnected from it all. This lifestyle is not an easy one. We see old straight people but have you ever seen an old gay one?
Friendships are so important to people who are not going to potentially have children. Who will take care of you when you can not do it yourself? Who will love you and call mama and dada? Where do we go when we are over the hill? In my heart I want someone who I can look in their face and see time pass by. I want to count the wrinkles on their face like I would count the annual rings around the trunk of an old oak tree. I want to sit talking about the meaning of life when the thought of sex is just another joke of our foolish youth. I know the body is mortal but I want to look at this person and see the eternal part of their spirit. I want to love the part that I know will never die. I want to love their eternal soul.
I will make it a point to spend some more time with Nana. I will show her love even more. In her eyes I see the point where most of us will find ourselves but when you give love the way she has all her life you will never be alone because love finds you in so many different ways.
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You my spririted friend, will never be fully alone. You will always have someone there that will fill your empty spaces.
You will always be cared for and never be lonely, spiritually nor physically.
The beauty that eminates from you is electric. Someone would be a fool not to see that. Just don't block it when it comes.
As always in Parting,
I came in Peace and in Peace I leave.
Wow. I can't even describe how this one hit me.
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